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JimL
November 9th, 2004, 06:58 AM
My first thought this morning was that I wouldn't have any breakfast, which is why I ate seven hospital trays yesterday, trying to build up a reserve. I did take my fears to God, and was reassured that either I would be with Him, if the surgery failed, or I would be with Him if the surgery was successful. So no worries left. I put in a strong request that they not stick any more needles into me until they had first used my existing IV to give me some happy juice, and they obliged me on that. My other request was that they not shave more than they needed to, since I had worked so hard to grow what I have. It was about then that the lights went out.

There are visitors coming into my room, and I think I'm still alive. Morphine button for pain? Oh, yeah, I should press that when I have visitors so that I'm not in pain. But it seems that the morphine put me out immediately, which sort of conflicted with the whole idea of having visitors. I have no memory whatsoever of intubation, nor any throat discomfort.

Sometime, and I'm still not sure if it was three years ago today or tomorrow, they wanted me to sit up in bed, which seemed to be no problem until I did it, and realized that I had indeed had major surgery, and where was that morphine button?

I didn't find VRcom until several months after surgery, so I got a little over excited about some of the minor problems I had to deal with in the ensuing weeks, such as arrhythmias. It was so amazing to find a whole website devoted to the surgery I had just had, a whole group of caring people who had experienced the same things I had, and were still trying to decipher how they got from one side of the mountain to the other.

People still ask me how I'm doing after surgery. I've sometimes told them the truth, but it's pretty obvious they don't want to know any details. So now I usually tell them what they want to hear, which seems to satisfy them: (1) they don't have to get into the details which are probably over their heads, (2) It is possible to have a complete recovery, just in case they should need the same or a similar surgery. Explaining to people the differences between valve surgery and bypass surgery just seems to be a waste of words...

I hope no one minds too much, but I'll probably stick around VRcom for the foreseeable future. I have no significant symptoms at all; I'm still getting used to having a heart that functions like a normal heart, after living with a four-cylinder heart that was only firing on three cylinders for the first 46 years of my life. I'm getting a new cardiologist, not because I really need one, but just in case I do; so I suppose if I do have heart needs, there's no better place to turn for good and fast answers than you people. Once in a while I deceive myself into thinking I know something that will help someone else; sometimes no one corrects me, so maybe I was right. And there is the hearty camaraderie among the mostly normal people here, and the heartfelt camaraderie among the rest of us. So, please rejoice with me at three years, and if anyone wants to come and drink a homebrew with me in celebration today, let me know and I'll send you an address.

MichyB
November 9th, 2004, 07:35 AM
Happy Birthday from NY. Sorry can't join you in the beer from here.

Mich

Mary
November 9th, 2004, 07:51 AM
Happy anniversary Jim.

Ross
November 9th, 2004, 08:00 AM
Happy anniversary!
I really prefer not to remember mine, but since your remembering yours, heres to ya! :)

epstns
November 9th, 2004, 08:06 AM
Jim,
It is indeed a happy anniversary for you and for us because you are here with us. I am forever encouraged by the members who have come so far along the very difficult path from illness to wellness, dealing with the smooth and the bumpy paths. It makes my own waiting just a bit more bearable.

Thanks for coming back to visit today, this very special day.

May you have many happy returns of this anniversary!

Karlynn
November 9th, 2004, 08:18 AM
<<I did take my fears to God, and was reassured that either I would be with Him, if the surgery failed, or I would be with Him if the surgery was successful. So no worries left. >>

"If I stand let me stand on the promise that You will pull me through, and if I can't let me fall on the grace that first brought me to You." - Rich Mullins

Jim, thank you for your wonderful, thoughtful reflection on your momentous day. May you be granted many many more years to look back and give thanks.

I'd love to drop by for some of your famous home brew, unfortunately you're a bit out of my back yard.

Congratulations to you and Shirley.

bvdr
November 9th, 2004, 09:29 AM
A hearty congratulations to you, Jim. I'm glad you are doing well, found this site, and remain here as part of this wonderful family. God had other plans for you otherwise you would have been long gone! I have learned from you and your wonderful calm, dry sense of humor. You are part of the very fabric of VR.com.

tommy
November 9th, 2004, 09:34 AM
Jim,

Congratulations on your anniversary and thanks for sharing your faith. I too turned my situation over to God and was ready to accept his will. My toughest act of faith was counting on Him to take care of my family. I was at peace going into surgery.

It is no deception that your presence here benefits others. You never know how your sharing helps others cope or feel less alone in their feelings/symptoms/fears/joys.

Rejoice!

Rain
November 9th, 2004, 09:45 AM
It’s so amazing how this surgery has changed our lives. How it has bonded so many complete strangers together in friendship.

I can just see you falling asleep under the knife in state of complete calm, Jim. :D I was doing okay... talking with them about the freezing working conditions. Then the cowboy came over and told me to think of something happy..... that’s when my eyes teared. :( I thought of my darling six year old Sara at home waiting for me. Kapowey! I was out. lol It’s funny how those moments, hours and days surrounding your surgery are times you will never forget. Whew... I still have to take a deep breath when I think about it too much.

Have a ‘home brew’ for me today! :) And a big ‘cheerio’ to all our heart buddies!!

LUVMyBirman
November 9th, 2004, 09:57 AM
Congratulations Jim! May you have many many more!

Keep up the good work :)

Christina L
November 9th, 2004, 10:27 AM
Jim,

Congratulations on your anniversary.

The way you and others on this board can write - reading your saga - it was beautiful. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us on this special time!!

I can relate to your saying your heart is getting used to its new way of working - that is what I keep telling myself after every blip and bump of my heart - it worked overtime for 44 years and is getting used to its new self.

Many, many, many more!!!!

Christina L.

doberman
November 9th, 2004, 12:43 PM
You are right it all does seem to become a fog after a while, glad you are doing well, seems as if you have a good sense of humor about the whole ordeal. I received morphine after the surgery but I certainly did not have access to any button....happy anniversary. Cheers from the great white north.
JD

catwoman
November 9th, 2004, 12:54 PM
Happy anniversary on your third... may there be many more.

I did take my fears to God, and was reassured that either I would be with Him, if the surgery failed, or I would be with Him if the surgery was successful.

That's how I felt, too. A friend who had MVR in July said the same thing when we talked last Saturday.

tobagotwo
November 9th, 2004, 07:09 PM
Congratulations on three years and counting. I'm glad all your cyllinders are firing. Even your avatar looks relaxed and confident.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

Best wishes,

Sherry
November 9th, 2004, 07:27 PM
Best wishes to you, Jim, and your wonderful wife, Shirley. Glad you've put one more year behind you. It's funny that we sometimes dread getting a year older, but none of us here dread that VR anniversary date. Congratulations and BTW, very nice meeting both of you in Golden :) :)

Glenda
November 9th, 2004, 11:32 PM
Jim, what a wonderful post! I felt just like you did before I went to sleep. I was praying before I woke up and then when I finally did wake up after surgery, I started praying again. I really felt that whatever happened, I won.

Please continue to join us with you calm wisdom and wonderful way of sharing.

hensylee
November 10th, 2004, 05:25 AM
You have a way with words, Jim. Your post grabbed me from first word to last word. Thank you for sharing and congratulations on another 'birthday'. Ain't it just wonderful.

As to memories before the big sleep, I recall feeling like being wrapped in thearms of those wonderful heated sheets. Such comfort - and then ZAP!

JimL
November 13th, 2004, 12:44 PM
Thank you for all your replies; I'm delighted that most of the red hat club stopped by. Shirley remembered that it was my anniversary, without any prompting from me. My daughter also remembered and called home from school. My sons, on the other hand, are more like me.
I received a letter this past Tuesday, on my anniversary, which reminded me of one of the things I've been able to enjoy because of these anniversaries. This past summer I built a loft bed for Abby, daughter of some friends. They sent me a reference to internet plans, which I printed and sort of followed. I got all the material, cut it to size, etc, and loaded it in my car to go to their house and build the bed in her bedroom, since it would never fit through the door. Abby, who is nine years old, helped carry in the various parts, and stayed to help build the bed for about four hours of continuous work. What a delight! She was fun to work with, and she took delight in helping to build her bed. Here it is, with paint that her mother applied. Most of it is built from construction grade pine, with no fancy joints, but the ladder is 6/4 oak with dado construction.

fyrfytr
November 13th, 2004, 01:32 PM
Hey Jim,
Sorry I missed your Anniversary. I have started a new career and have been in training this whole month so I haven't had much time to read everything that is going on with the site.
Anyway Happy Anniversary! :) with many more years to come.
Looks like you enjoy working with wood. I have some things I would like built, would you like to come over and complete them for me? :D
Take Care

JimL
November 13th, 2004, 02:35 PM
Certainly, Dave. Congratulations on your new career! Let me know what you want built, and we'll see what we can do.

Mary
November 13th, 2004, 03:15 PM
Jim,
If you're taking requests, I'd like a house. :D
Thanks. ;)

hensylee
November 15th, 2004, 06:32 AM
we still have some Ivan damage, Jim. We also serve lunch.

JimL
November 15th, 2004, 07:03 AM
Mary, perhaps this is what you're looking for.

Ann, what's for lunch?

Mary
November 15th, 2004, 07:35 AM
You're brilliant, Jim! That's exactly what I meant! ;)
Mary